Self-Control.

Why is it that when we start using self-control in the areas we need it (i.e. getting off the computer at the proper time, and doing your chores), and then we start loosing self-control where we had it and very much need it (i.e. temptations)? It's very frustrating, learning a new trick just to forget your other one's. why cant I just read a book, say a prayer, and it's done?
My goal this week is to conquer both, at the same time. Lord, will I need prayer. I know I can do it. And that I'm capable of doing so.
OH! and why is it that you don't really want to do something but you do it anyways? Another frustration. Like watch something (not that it's bad, or I'm not suppose to be doing these things.) or play something, even though you don't really want to. I'm guessing it's ritual. Like I feel like I have to. It's weird, I've never felt like this before.
Sadly, It's as easy to say no as it is to say no. We just want what the temptation, so that bit of us that wants it, decides it.
I'm going to blog more often, it helps me. I need to get another video blog out. Not that anyone watches, but I enjoy it. Just like this. No one reads it, but I do it. I enjoy it.
Frustrated,
Kiwi Lee