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Control.

I was watching this movie, and this dad was so controling over his son. I started to think about people who do that, including what I do to control people. We as individuals hate to be controlled, no? So why do we do it to others? It only makes them resent use, push us away, rebel. Now in some cases I've seen control and they don't do what I listed above, but they become dependant on that person. It normally ends up with them trying to get the controllers apporval, and ends in heartbreak.

But for those who resent us, push us away, and rebel. They build up anger start controling what they can, which can lead to abusing themself, not just physically, mentally. I can feel their rage build.

If you love that person so much, wouldn't you do what you could so they wouldn't do these things to themselves? Prevent that from happening? Or would you throw your nose in the air pretend it's not happening and keep charging?

I think we see the right answer, but so many look up so they can't see the mess they're creating. Someone brings it up and they walk the other way. Why don't they want help? Pride. Selfishness. Embarrassment.

I see this happen to people around me, whether I know them or not, I see it. It saddens me. I know that part of the control is because of a domino effect... they couldn't control someone, so they control that person, that person controls someone else because the other person controls them.

Open your eyes. Look at what you control. I know it's in everyone. Let go. Calm yourself. Collect yourself. Grieve. Start over if needed. Then walk out of the hall of control, take the nearest exit. Apologize. Walk away. Pray. Bring the inner streangth He gives you to the surface.

We can all do this. We have to choose to do this. Don't roll your eyes at this. You know exactly what this is reffering to in your life. Stop hiding. It's getting you no where but to have no one to turn to to give advice. Because you'll be the leader in which you've started your village. the King has no one to turn to because he is the highest in authority. Didn't even think of having God to turn to, not when you started getting the army you control. Because when you control, there's no place for God. You leave Him behind, but expect Him to pick up those other little things.

You think, "oh I can get these huge reigns, God, would you mind getting those couple of little ones? Thanks." You'll just get pulled into the freezing snow trying to figure out what had happened. When you know what happened, you just lift your head a bit higher so you can find someone else to blame.

Self-Control.

Why is it that when we start using self-control in the areas we need it (i.e. getting off the computer at the proper time, and doing your chores), and then we start loosing self-control where we had it and very much need it (i.e. temptations)? It's very frustrating, learning a new trick just to forget your other one's. why cant I just read a book, say a prayer, and it's done?
My goal this week is to conquer both, at the same time. Lord, will I need prayer. I know I can do it. And that I'm capable of doing so.
OH! and why is it that you don't really want to do something but you do it anyways? Another frustration. Like watch something (not that it's bad, or I'm not suppose to be doing these things.) or play something, even though you don't really want to. I'm guessing it's ritual. Like I feel like I have to. It's weird, I've never felt like this before.
Sadly, It's as easy to say no as it is to say no. We just want what the temptation, so that bit of us that wants it, decides it.
I'm going to blog more often, it helps me. I need to get another video blog out. Not that anyone watches, but I enjoy it. Just like this. No one reads it, but I do it. I enjoy it.
Frustrated,
Kiwi Lee

so why are you going to cast someone out just because you dont agree with everything they say? how many times have you said something and not believed it?

have you every wanted more friends?its not that my friends aren't enough or w.e...but i want more variety...egh but these people dont just apear...unfortunantly

Listening to Freddy Mercury.

Every once in a while I think I'm lying

Take it to the bank, I'll believe every word I say
(This just isn't how, this just isn't how)

Then again this is when you start your prying
(This just isn't how, this just isn't how)

But there's a thought it could be true

But this just isn't how I imagined it would be
With these random people just asking the most personal things
And to think that somehow I could always come clean
And you shake your head just like you know what I mean

You're Christian, tell the sinner, to find repentance, it's your last chance
You believer, where's your patience?
Answer questions, put on faces
What about God?
(To see if it's right or wrong, to listen to this song, I don't want you too)
What about God?
(And see if you're okay with all the words I say; it can't be this way)
What about God?
What does it mean?
What does it mean?
For you and for me, what about God?
All have fallen short.

Somehow, someone's more equal than others

Depending on the words we choose to say

A glance at her too long tonight
But everything I'm saying's right in your ears
We are all the sisters and the brothers
Until we find we don't believe the same

Like...

Gary's getting drunk to forget Sarah
Sarah's stealing money from her parents
Aaron's lying straight to Jon about Megan and the things that went on
Jessica's a gossip, Laura's a slut
Derrick hits Bridget, Ben deals drugs
Seth spends all his money gambling
Joey stopped praying

It is all the same thing

We are all the same people
With sinning hearts that make us equal
Here's my hand, not words said desperately

It's not our job to make (Force) anyone believe


-Emery